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Welcome! If you're just joining me, we're going to have a chat about faith getting turned upside down and I want to share a bit about my process as I go through a rebuilding of my faith. I'm very much in process, and learning as I go. I loved the stories some of you sent me to share that you're in a similar situation with faith.  It's hard to know exactly what triggered my faith to have a crisis in the last couple of years. It has been building up for awhile.  About 10 years ago or so, I remember feeling overwhelmed with doubt. Mostly it was doubt about the Bible. Like, an ark? really? Every animal on it in pairs? Or how did every person in this world come from one pair of humans? How did different cultures form and get to different continents? I couldn't even begin to go there with dinosaurs and fossils. I just had question after question and it seemed incredulous to me that the Bible could be true. I finally confessed these thoughts to my amazing husband, and ...

 2020 will go down in the history books as a year that changed everything. And for me, it really did.  Some of the changes were superficial, and some have turned my world upside down. I adopted a sour dough starter until I realized it made too many dishes and was too much daily cooking work for me. RIP Michelle Dough-bama. I painted a lot of pictures in online classes and they are hanging up in a lame amateur gallery in my office downstairs. They make me happy.  The biggest thing that happened to me in 2020 was that my faith got turned upside down. I mean up.side.down. The whole experience was bewildering and frightening and sad for me. And like a friend of mine said the other day, once you start, you can't go back. You can't.  I saw a quote awhile back that brought me some hope in this difficult process. "What if your doubts are God's whispers to bring you to the truth of the actual gospel?" Doubts feel like failures to me as a Christian, and this framed my doubt...